Tuesday, March 26, 2019

Hari ku sepi tanpamu

Kini aku diam,
Merenung masa dan hati,
Tentang kita dan masa lalu,
Yang ku tahu takkan terulang.

Apa mungkin kan menghilang,
Rasa rindu yang tak terubat,
Rasa hati yang tak terulas,
Menantikan waktu seksa berlalu,
Sakit yang tidak berhenti memalu.

Kini kau diam,
Pergi entah kemana,
Hilang bunyi nada dan suara,
Membiar aku di panah rindu,
Melempar rasa buat ku binasa.

Ku tahu rasa ini,
Bukan milikku untuk disimpan,
Ku tahu rasa ini,
Bukan kau yang meminta,
Ku tahu rasa ini,
Hanya waktu yang bisa merubatnya.

Kau bukan milikku,
Meski aku mahu,
Tapi aku harus merelakannya,
Pergi...
Kerna kau bukanlah untukku.

Friday, March 15, 2019

Am i happier?

Am i happier?

Seeing her once a week...talking to her daily...texting her daily...i am happier...i guess...

But shes getting married soon.....

Wednesday, February 13, 2019

Proof that i dont matter anymore

1 - no more calls
2 - no more waiting for that arrive home txts
3 - no more seeing if a msg was sent or not
4 - no more waiting for a msgs to be replied

Ok, you have prove the point. It hurts alot. I can feel the pain. It cuts me deeper day by day. But all i have with me now, is this pain, or forever losing you.

So i choose to be in constant pain, than a deep cut with no chance to heal, forever.

It hurts everyday...it really hurts. If only i can turn back time...I'm really in pain, why cant you see it.....?